[little john steps around her new spot and meows at sena's kiss, sitting down as she starts to clean herself. leo strokes down her back gently, focusing on that easily.]
Mm~. Once they're weaned, I'll probably see if anyone wants one... Go through applications and interviews... That kinda thing. I'd wanna keep them since I can now, but Aspe's only starting to really getting used to her. I don't want to be a bother and ask he get used to like, five more, you know?
[even if he thinks aspen might adopt the litter fast.]
Sena can have his pick of the litter, of course~. But only the one I recommend.
Jeez, if I hadn't known any better, I thought you'd be holding an omiai or whatever. [ a pause. ] Do you even know who she mated with? You just never know with this place and its wildlife that may be just the hornier versions of the ones we already have back home.
[ all animals are inherently horny, izumi, shut the fuck up.
he scritches little john's chin with a thoughtful hum. oh, right, since they're at that topic already - ]
...I'd have to make sure with my roommate first. Er - contract, I mean. [ closes his eyes. ] We're planning to move into my own apartment in a few days, actually.
I don't, but that's fine~. She's always been free as can be, aren't you~?
[mrrrrr... relaxing,
at least one of them is. leo's fine with roommate, but the moment contract comes up his hand pauses, smile frozen on his face. mmm. they don't... mean much, it's convenient, it's okay, it's not like leo has a say in who sena gets to contract or not--]
I think I've told you about him before? He's a total grump, kind of like me. Only difference is that he's not human - an angel, in fact.
[ with six wings, but he's said to have lost them... hm. ]
Originally I didn't plan to contract this soon, but he approached me first so I might as well. His name's Sandalphon, by the way.
[ there's a much deeper reason why the contract even happened but that's classified information. knowing sandals, izumi wouldn't want to share info about what he'd seen in his head back then because it still burns in his mind to this day. ]
[there's nothing to worry about then; leo feels relief relax his body and he looks out the window instead, smiling lightly. this, at least, is something he can look directly at.]
I don't have a~nything to worry about then. ♪ Hey, hey, I wanna meet him sometime~, let's have dinner. ☆
He's not me me, you idiot. And why should you even worry? You think I can't just choose anyone I'd like without your permission?
[ having leo meet him feels... weird, somehow. contracts shouldn't mean anything, it's out of convenience, but - ]
Besides, we're still busy like I said. We can't just keep going out to dinner too, you know. [ is that really all they can do now? go out to eat and maybe kiss every now and then? because that - just feels like a complete downgrade. but that's probably just izumi, who's always wanting more, craving more. ]
[ah, did he hit a sore spot... leo puffs his cheeks a bit and takes sena's hand, staring down.]
No, I... [mmmm, mm. it feels heavy in his throat and he realizes that even if he can look this in the face he can't say it... to sena, anyway.
leo shakes his head and lifts his face, pouting.] Is there a problem with us going out together? I wanna spend time with Sena, is that wrong? What do you wanna do, Sena?
I do want to spend time with you. M-More than anything.
[ he loses some of that bite in his voice,, squeezing leo's hand back as he sits more comfortably on the floor. wouldn't want to wake up and upset the sleeping pregnant cat in between them. ]
To be honest, I didn't know what to think when I heard you've already contracted with someone else, since... I've wanted to ask you back then too. [ only to find out that he was too late. again. ] But at the same time, it might have been better if we're with different people. I'd probably just keep you all to myself if I ever had my way.
[ just like his clone. izumi's face is getting redder, as if something's strangling him to get the words out because leo has to know the truth, he deserves that much - ]
Even so, I still... want more. With you. Going out is fine, but we don't even know what we really are right now.
very true, he guesses. outside of that school, their unit, the kind of relationship they have has always been on the precipice of something; here, it's magnified, just... like with eichi, which is a topic he doesn't want to think about right now. leo sits with him after a moment, rubbing his hand idly.]
... I'm still stupid, and I can't really say what I wanna say... but I'm better than I was before, I think. I hope. [...maybe...] But I want more with you too, Sena. I can be satisfied with this, getting dinner and kissing and curling up against you, but I-- I want so much more that it really, really sucks, you know?
[it hurts, in a way, how much more he wants. it might be in part his lingering aches from last year, even if he's matured for the most part (slip ups are natural), but-- he does, he does want more.
he just also wants more than he's allowed.]
I love you, Sena. I love Aspe too. He said... as part of our contract, and our relationship, that we both have people we love in different ways, and that he doesn't want to keep either of us from that. [it. isn't something leo is entirely happy with, but he makes sacrifices and turns a blind eye.] I understood that, and that's why he accepted me wooing him too. So we're both allowed to be with the other people we love.
[a soft squeeze to sena's hand.]
To be honest, it doesn't really settle with me~. But it also makes me greedy, you know..? I want you, I want Aspe, but I don't want either of you to have someone else. Just me. That's why I was worried, Sena. Because I love you, and I don't want you to look at anyone else but me.
[ ah, so he's in an open relationship... that's all right, izumi supposes. it'd make sense too, with how leo throws his brand of love all around, making the world a little bit better because of that. not to mention that it's only fair, given how izumi had paid more attention with makoto while he was gone - ]
Even now, you still love me?
[ he whispers, still not believing his ears. his eyes are a little glossy as he gazes at the other boy, cheeks burning hotter than ever, and he squeezes his hand a bit tighter while holding back his fuckign tears.
god, he really is a stupid-ass romcom protag. what did he even do to deserve this, he's a good person - but maybe that's why leo thinks so. ]
I... don't think I could love in a place like this, to tell you the truth. A lot of people confuse love and lust anyway and I'm already lost as it is... But even back then, while you were gone from Yumenosaki, while I was fussing over Yuu-kun, it has always been because I've wanted to make it up to you. I want to be better not just for you, but with you, and... what I'm trying to say is that--
[ he takes a deep breath, taking both of leo's hands now to steel himself. if leo thinks he's still stupid about feelings, izumi just takes the low-carb cake.
but maybe it's because it's izumi that his next words would make a much greater impact. ]
...I love you, Leo-kun. I'm sorry that it took me so long to tell you, but I always have. I just want you to look at me and only me, too.
[the only thing he'd ever wanted to hear last year, spoken now.
preceded by "i don't think i could love in a place like this".
it must be a cosmic joke. the aliens, god, they must be having the time of their life laughing at him, because it's both terrible and wonderful. leo turns his hands over and brings sena's to his lips, kissing them softly, speaking against them as he shakes.]
You're stupid. Even if I wanted to, so badly, I couldn't not love you. You're important to me, Sena... the difference between then and now is that I have other people I can trust with myself, too. Rittsu. Naru. Suo~. You know?
[so it's not just on sena, not like before. that was... too much, he knows that, it was terrible of him to put so much on the other and expect the same in return -- no human, no matter how good, no matter how much they treasured enough, could do handle that. especially not with how leo'd given everything.
it's the lessons he tries so hard to impress upon tsukasa, that he's not alone, that he doesn't have to feel that way... that he should talk if he's not feeling good, if he's worried or lonely. leo hopes that kid never has to go through anything that he had himself, but...]
I wanna create music with you, Sena. I want to perform for you across the universe. Can't you hear that..? In the songs I wrote for you, couldn't you hear them in the notes? My feelings for you.
[ the way leo's trembling is eerily reminiscent of their second year, when they were screaming their frustrations at each other, feeling unfulfilled at what they could've been - but leo's right, they're not alone anymore. not just with their fellow knights, but it's as though their bonds with their schoolmates have strengthened since coming here. even his weird relationship with eichi has escalated into something that's... not as irritating anymore, but even that's subjective.
who would've thought a literal sex city would've brought them all together?
izumi pulls his hands away from leo's grasp, only to cup his face gently and wipe his thumbs at those shiny eyes. shh, shh. ]
I know... I know. [ he can't cry now, he has to be the stronger one here, as he presses his forehead to leo's and whispers reverently: ] I still bring your music with me wherever I go.
[ not just the ratty old ipod that transcended time and space hidden away in izumi's belongings, but his songs have been tucked away in his heart as well - music that let izumi improve as a singer and vow to become a much better knight to duel for his king's behalf. it's there, it's always been there, and his leo is right about him being a fucking dumbass about all this that izumi will just have to retort by pressing his lips onto his for a kiss.
still bad at words, this boy. but aren't they all? ]
[leo makes a whining noise, pressing more into his hands and then his lips, half crawling into sena's lap so he can hug him properly, tears dropping out despite their best efforts; it's always like this when leo gets overemotional, he can't help but let it out somehow, and though the tears are usually left for dressing rooms and corners where no one can find him after lives he's always let them flow freer around sena, sena, his sena.
he'll eventual calm down into more shaking than anything else, resting his head against sena's and sniffling, but for the most part he's very much just letting himself sag, so deal with it.]
Stupid, stupid, stupid... You're so stupid.
[but he's stupid too, he knows. in a lot of ways that sena can't begin to imagine, or want to imagine for that matter. yet
he can do something right here, even if he feels bad about it just a bit, and brings his hands to cup sena's cheeks, smiling fondly.]
Mm~. Sena, be mine? I wanna call you "my Sena". I'll woo you if I have to, but I want to be yours, too.
[ wow, four stupids... least leo didn't compare him to poop like last time. izumi can only let out an amused huff, leaning his head more against leo and letting his fingers trail staffs and notes across his back. izumi's steeled himself not to get too emotional, but at least in this position he can let just one tear fall down his face.
they're. really out here crying in front of the pregnant cat, huh. as for leo's heartfelt request he'll let himself rest in leo's hands for a bit, recomposing his feelings before lifting themselves up from the floor and carrying leo out of the living room and back into the living room, gently placing him on the couch before joining him. ]
You're really selfish, aren't you? Not to mention greedy, childish... But I wouldn't have it any other way if you'll have me, Leo-kun. [ mm, his cheeks are starting to hurt from how much he's smiling so warmly. ] Still, I'm not too sure about that - and it's not because I'm taking everything I've said back, but I too don't want to share my Leo-kun with everyone else.
[ his leo-kun... it does have a nice ring to it. ♪ ]
But at the same time, I want to prove that I can love and be loved without going out of control like that again. You're not the only one who's changed since then, so... will you help me?
[sena's no exception to his rule of not being carried without permission, but since it's just him mostly leaning against the other it's fine; he settles into the couch and pulls sena closer when he does too, cheeks warming. his leo-kun sounds nice. as nice as "my sena". his heart is cotton candy, sweet and soft and so very meltable, but he clings to the strands anyway, happy.]
Of course, Se~na. All of us are different than we were before... the Sena then, he wouldn't have asked help from anyone, least of all someone as unreliable and flighty as me~. [nuzzling into sena's hair, fond and affectionate.] "I won't rely on anyone," that's what you said, "I can stand even without leaning on someone," things like that...
[but it gets tiring, being alone, as they've both experienced... he trails off there, looking thoughtfully at the plants they'd brought from the other flat. without depending on others, growing and blossoming -- a flower can do naturally, even as it fights against the weather and circumstances...
the ones that're properly taken care of though, that've been shown love and care, are always the most vibrant and long lasting, and he smiles with a hum.]
Who do I get to blame for that change~? Naru and Rittsu, who stuck by your side like I asked? Suo~, who you all put your lives on the line for during that silly Judgement I threw down? No, I'll blame all of them and Sena himself. ♪ Wahaha, I love it, I love you~ ♪
Jeez, I still can't believe you remember all that shit I said eons ago yet you'd forget casual reminders like coming to school on time.
[ words he wishes he could take back before that disaster of a live happened, tears that he could've stopped from falling off leo's face when they'd had their shouting match after that - it weighs heavily in izumi's heart even to this day and he brings leo much much closer, his body becoming more comfortable and receptive to the loving touch that he'd kept pushing away for so long.
bleh, his heart's turning all gooey too, but that's par for the course for a sweets-hater like him. he'll need to get used to the sweet words leo's been spooning him with since the day they'd met, and he supposes that it's now or never. he's tired of delaying this now that they're finally here. ]
They've changed you too, you know. All of us have. We all did our best in holding up the fort until you came back. [ izumi did wild out for a moment there, but. past is past, ok. he continues running his hand through leo's hair, head tucked into the crook of his neck as he pulls his knees up to wrap his legs around leo. mm, mmm. comfy. ] But honestly, I've missed hearing those words from you... Makes me wanna say them myself to make up for all the lost time.
[mmm, mm, comfy, comfy... leo lets his eyes close and he hums softly, nuzzling sena again. he's changed cause of all of them too, huh... yeah. he'll have to properly thank them someday, for accepting an out of touch king back into their court, for waiting so patiently for him to remember and dragging him along.]
Sena'll stumble over them if he does it right off the back, so practice in the mirror first~. "Leo-kun, I looove you, I love you soooo muuuuuch~," and stuff like that. ♪ Anyway, I think I'd die if you said it as much as I do.
Hm~? [ really now........ ] Then we'll just have to make do with what we have right now.
[ izumi pulls leo off of his shoulder, gently kissing his eyes open so that he can stare into them. these emerald eyes are so easy to get lost into with how vibrant they look, and izumi is such a fool for making himself turn away from them when he himself keeps looking and falling for people with the same eye color.
they can never replace the original, though. that much is true. ]
...I love you. [ OKAY HE DIDN'T STUMBLE that's good. but he's so red despite his suave face that it'd still give his nervousness away. ]
[the kisses are oddly intimate, but they do their job well; his eyes open and he stares curiously at sena, lips tugging into a quick grin at the words, at how red sena's face is. ah, his cheeks are warm too, but it's nothing compared to how tight his heart is, how he presses himself into sena's chest with a laugh.]
I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
[ uwah, his chest feels like it's gonna burst and overflow with so much affection from how leo reacts to this. at this rate izumi's gonna pass out from lavishing leo with words that he'd meant to say in the past before leo would actually die from hearing them on repeat. but izumi steels himself, kissing his entire face while cheekily missing his lips, murmuring those three words like a secret as he gently pins leo down on the couch so that he can curl up on top of him, much like a cat.
this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
Partners, [immediate, bright, flushed face and fond. he squeezes sena's hand, repeating it softer.] We're partners, Sena.
[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
[ partners... that's a good compromise. izumi has his reservations about getting into an actual relationship in this city which was why he said what he'd said earlier, about not going to love in a place like this. but it's so much different with leo, who'd already said that they're partners during halloween, and this time that word holds a lot more meaning than before. because it could be anything they want and only they would know, much like a well-kept secret.
izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
[ah, he can hear how his heart picks up at that, hand gently carding through sena's hair and against the back of his neck.]
Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
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Date: 2019-01-09 05:04 am (UTC)Mm~. Once they're weaned, I'll probably see if anyone wants one... Go through applications and interviews... That kinda thing. I'd wanna keep them since I can now, but Aspe's only starting to really getting used to her. I don't want to be a bother and ask he get used to like, five more, you know?
[even if he thinks aspen might adopt the litter fast.]
Sena can have his pick of the litter, of course~. But only the one I recommend.
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Date: 2019-01-10 12:45 pm (UTC)[ all animals are inherently horny, izumi, shut the fuck up.
he scritches little john's chin with a thoughtful hum. oh, right, since they're at that topic already - ]
...I'd have to make sure with my roommate first. Er - contract, I mean. [ closes his eyes. ] We're planning to move into my own apartment in a few days, actually.
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Date: 2019-01-10 08:34 pm (UTC)[mrrrrr... relaxing,
at least one of them is. leo's fine with roommate, but the moment contract comes up his hand pauses, smile frozen on his face. mmm. they don't... mean much, it's convenient, it's okay, it's not like leo has a say in who sena gets to contract or not--]
What're they like?
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Date: 2019-01-10 11:02 pm (UTC)[ with six wings, but he's said to have lost them... hm. ]
Originally I didn't plan to contract this soon, but he approached me first so I might as well. His name's Sandalphon, by the way.
[ there's a much deeper reason why the contract even happened but that's classified information. knowing sandals, izumi wouldn't want to share info about what he'd seen in his head back then because it still burns in his mind to this day. ]
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Date: 2019-01-10 11:13 pm (UTC)[there's nothing to worry about then; leo feels relief relax his body and he looks out the window instead, smiling lightly. this, at least, is something he can look directly at.]
I don't have a~nything to worry about then. ♪ Hey, hey, I wanna meet him sometime~, let's have dinner. ☆
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Date: 2019-01-10 11:26 pm (UTC)[ having leo meet him feels... weird, somehow. contracts shouldn't mean anything, it's out of convenience, but - ]
Besides, we're still busy like I said. We can't just keep going out to dinner too, you know. [ is that really all they can do now? go out to eat and maybe kiss every now and then? because that - just feels like a complete downgrade. but that's probably just izumi, who's always wanting more, craving more. ]
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Date: 2019-01-10 11:48 pm (UTC)No, I... [mmmm, mm. it feels heavy in his throat and he realizes that even if he can look this in the face he can't say it... to sena, anyway.
leo shakes his head and lifts his face, pouting.] Is there a problem with us going out together? I wanna spend time with Sena, is that wrong? What do you wanna do, Sena?
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Date: 2019-01-11 12:41 am (UTC)[ he loses some of that bite in his voice,, squeezing leo's hand back as he sits more comfortably on the floor. wouldn't want to wake up and upset the sleeping pregnant cat in between them. ]
To be honest, I didn't know what to think when I heard you've already contracted with someone else, since... I've wanted to ask you back then too. [ only to find out that he was too late. again. ] But at the same time, it might have been better if we're with different people. I'd probably just keep you all to myself if I ever had my way.
[ just like his clone. izumi's face is getting redder, as if something's strangling him to get the words out because leo has to know the truth, he deserves that much - ]
Even so, I still... want more. With you. Going out is fine, but we don't even know what we really are right now.
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Date: 2019-01-11 12:57 am (UTC)that's
very true, he guesses. outside of that school, their unit, the kind of relationship they have has always been on the precipice of something; here, it's magnified, just... like with eichi, which is a topic he doesn't want to think about right now. leo sits with him after a moment, rubbing his hand idly.]
... I'm still stupid, and I can't really say what I wanna say... but I'm better than I was before, I think. I hope. [...maybe...] But I want more with you too, Sena. I can be satisfied with this, getting dinner and kissing and curling up against you, but I-- I want so much more that it really, really sucks, you know?
[it hurts, in a way, how much more he wants. it might be in part his lingering aches from last year, even if he's matured for the most part (slip ups are natural), but-- he does, he does want more.
he just also wants more than he's allowed.]
I love you, Sena. I love Aspe too. He said... as part of our contract, and our relationship, that we both have people we love in different ways, and that he doesn't want to keep either of us from that. [it. isn't something leo is entirely happy with, but he makes sacrifices and turns a blind eye.] I understood that, and that's why he accepted me wooing him too. So we're both allowed to be with the other people we love.
[a soft squeeze to sena's hand.]
To be honest, it doesn't really settle with me~. But it also makes me greedy, you know..? I want you, I want Aspe, but I don't want either of you to have someone else. Just me. That's why I was worried, Sena. Because I love you, and I don't want you to look at anyone else but me.
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Date: 2019-01-11 01:33 am (UTC)Even now, you still love me?
[ he whispers, still not believing his ears. his eyes are a little glossy as he gazes at the other boy, cheeks burning hotter than ever, and he squeezes his hand a bit tighter while holding back his fuckign tears.
god, he really is a stupid-ass romcom protag. what did he even do to deserve this, he's a good person - but maybe that's why leo thinks so. ]
I... don't think I could love in a place like this, to tell you the truth. A lot of people confuse love and lust anyway and I'm already lost as it is... But even back then, while you were gone from Yumenosaki, while I was fussing over Yuu-kun, it has always been because I've wanted to make it up to you. I want to be better not just for you, but with you, and... what I'm trying to say is that--
[ he takes a deep breath, taking both of leo's hands now to steel himself. if leo thinks he's still stupid about feelings, izumi just takes the low-carb cake.
but maybe it's because it's izumi that his next words would make a much greater impact. ]
...I love you, Leo-kun. I'm sorry that it took me so long to tell you, but I always have. I just want you to look at me and only me, too.
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Date: 2019-01-11 05:22 am (UTC)preceded by "i don't think i could love in a place like this".
it must be a cosmic joke. the aliens, god, they must be having the time of their life laughing at him, because it's both terrible and wonderful. leo turns his hands over and brings sena's to his lips, kissing them softly, speaking against them as he shakes.]
You're stupid. Even if I wanted to, so badly, I couldn't not love you. You're important to me, Sena... the difference between then and now is that I have other people I can trust with myself, too. Rittsu. Naru. Suo~. You know?
[so it's not just on sena, not like before. that was... too much, he knows that, it was terrible of him to put so much on the other and expect the same in return -- no human, no matter how good, no matter how much they treasured enough, could do handle that. especially not with how leo'd given everything.
it's the lessons he tries so hard to impress upon tsukasa, that he's not alone, that he doesn't have to feel that way... that he should talk if he's not feeling good, if he's worried or lonely. leo hopes that kid never has to go through anything that he had himself, but...]
I wanna create music with you, Sena. I want to perform for you across the universe. Can't you hear that..? In the songs I wrote for you, couldn't you hear them in the notes? My feelings for you.
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Date: 2019-01-11 05:49 am (UTC)who would've thought a literal sex city would've brought them all together?
izumi pulls his hands away from leo's grasp, only to cup his face gently and wipe his thumbs at those shiny eyes. shh, shh. ]
I know... I know. [ he can't cry now, he has to be the stronger one here, as he presses his forehead to leo's and whispers reverently: ] I still bring your music with me wherever I go.
[ not just the ratty old ipod that transcended time and space hidden away in izumi's belongings, but his songs have been tucked away in his heart as well - music that let izumi improve as a singer and vow to become a much better knight to duel for his king's behalf. it's there, it's always been there, and his leo is right about him being a fucking dumbass about all this that izumi will just have to retort by pressing his lips onto his for a kiss.
still bad at words, this boy. but aren't they all? ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 06:32 am (UTC)he'll eventual calm down into more shaking than anything else, resting his head against sena's and sniffling, but for the most part he's very much just letting himself sag, so deal with it.]
Stupid, stupid, stupid... You're so stupid.
[but he's stupid too, he knows. in a lot of ways that sena can't begin to imagine, or want to imagine for that matter. yet
he can do something right here, even if he feels bad about it just a bit, and brings his hands to cup sena's cheeks, smiling fondly.]
Mm~. Sena, be mine? I wanna call you "my Sena". I'll woo you if I have to, but I want to be yours, too.
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:09 am (UTC)they're. really out here crying in front of the pregnant cat, huh. as for leo's heartfelt request he'll let himself rest in leo's hands for a bit, recomposing his feelings before lifting themselves up from the floor and carrying leo out of the living room and back into the living room, gently placing him on the couch before joining him. ]
You're really selfish, aren't you? Not to mention greedy, childish... But I wouldn't have it any other way if you'll have me, Leo-kun. [ mm, his cheeks are starting to hurt from how much he's smiling so warmly. ] Still, I'm not too sure about that - and it's not because I'm taking everything I've said back, but I too don't want to share my Leo-kun with everyone else.
[ his leo-kun... it does have a nice ring to it. ♪ ]
But at the same time, I want to prove that I can love and be loved without going out of control like that again. You're not the only one who's changed since then, so... will you help me?
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Date: 2019-01-16 05:36 pm (UTC)Of course, Se~na. All of us are different than we were before... the Sena then, he wouldn't have asked help from anyone, least of all someone as unreliable and flighty as me~. [nuzzling into sena's hair, fond and affectionate.] "I won't rely on anyone," that's what you said, "I can stand even without leaning on someone," things like that...
[but it gets tiring, being alone, as they've both experienced... he trails off there, looking thoughtfully at the plants they'd brought from the other flat. without depending on others, growing and blossoming -- a flower can do naturally, even as it fights against the weather and circumstances...
the ones that're properly taken care of though, that've been shown love and care, are always the most vibrant and long lasting, and he smiles with a hum.]
Who do I get to blame for that change~? Naru and Rittsu, who stuck by your side like I asked? Suo~, who you all put your lives on the line for during that silly Judgement I threw down? No, I'll blame all of them and Sena himself. ♪ Wahaha, I love it, I love you~ ♪
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Date: 2019-01-16 09:25 pm (UTC)[ words he wishes he could take back before that disaster of a live happened, tears that he could've stopped from falling off leo's face when they'd had their shouting match after that - it weighs heavily in izumi's heart even to this day and he brings leo much much closer, his body becoming more comfortable and receptive to the loving touch that he'd kept pushing away for so long.
bleh, his heart's turning all gooey too, but that's par for the course for a sweets-hater like him. he'll need to get used to the sweet words leo's been spooning him with since the day they'd met, and he supposes that it's now or never. he's tired of delaying this now that they're finally here. ]
They've changed you too, you know. All of us have. We all did our best in holding up the fort until you came back. [ izumi did wild out for a moment there, but. past is past, ok. he continues running his hand through leo's hair, head tucked into the crook of his neck as he pulls his knees up to wrap his legs around leo. mm, mmm. comfy. ] But honestly, I've missed hearing those words from you... Makes me wanna say them myself to make up for all the lost time.
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Date: 2019-01-17 11:19 am (UTC)Sena'll stumble over them if he does it right off the back, so practice in the mirror first~. "Leo-kun, I looove you, I love you soooo muuuuuch~," and stuff like that. ♪ Anyway, I think I'd die if you said it as much as I do.
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Date: 2019-01-17 12:53 pm (UTC)[ izumi pulls leo off of his shoulder, gently kissing his eyes open so that he can stare into them. these emerald eyes are so easy to get lost into with how vibrant they look, and izumi is such a fool for making himself turn away from them when he himself keeps looking and falling for people with the same eye color.
they can never replace the original, though. that much is true. ]
...I love you. [ OKAY HE DIDN'T STUMBLE that's good. but he's so red despite his suave face that it'd still give his nervousness away. ]
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Date: 2019-01-17 02:16 pm (UTC)I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:23 pm (UTC)this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:33 pm (UTC)[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:24 pm (UTC)izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:34 pm (UTC)Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:39 pm (UTC)[ truly he did. he looks his head up at leo with a bit of a pout. ]
You were the one who said that my voice was shitty, you know. Don't tell me you already forgot.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:42 pm (UTC)[he's teasing a little bit. there's the more romantic "your practice was shitty and your voice god himself" but there's also this.]
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