[ the way leo's trembling is eerily reminiscent of their second year, when they were screaming their frustrations at each other, feeling unfulfilled at what they could've been - but leo's right, they're not alone anymore. not just with their fellow knights, but it's as though their bonds with their schoolmates have strengthened since coming here. even his weird relationship with eichi has escalated into something that's... not as irritating anymore, but even that's subjective.
who would've thought a literal sex city would've brought them all together?
izumi pulls his hands away from leo's grasp, only to cup his face gently and wipe his thumbs at those shiny eyes. shh, shh. ]
I know... I know. [ he can't cry now, he has to be the stronger one here, as he presses his forehead to leo's and whispers reverently: ] I still bring your music with me wherever I go.
[ not just the ratty old ipod that transcended time and space hidden away in izumi's belongings, but his songs have been tucked away in his heart as well - music that let izumi improve as a singer and vow to become a much better knight to duel for his king's behalf. it's there, it's always been there, and his leo is right about him being a fucking dumbass about all this that izumi will just have to retort by pressing his lips onto his for a kiss.
still bad at words, this boy. but aren't they all? ]
[leo makes a whining noise, pressing more into his hands and then his lips, half crawling into sena's lap so he can hug him properly, tears dropping out despite their best efforts; it's always like this when leo gets overemotional, he can't help but let it out somehow, and though the tears are usually left for dressing rooms and corners where no one can find him after lives he's always let them flow freer around sena, sena, his sena.
he'll eventual calm down into more shaking than anything else, resting his head against sena's and sniffling, but for the most part he's very much just letting himself sag, so deal with it.]
Stupid, stupid, stupid... You're so stupid.
[but he's stupid too, he knows. in a lot of ways that sena can't begin to imagine, or want to imagine for that matter. yet
he can do something right here, even if he feels bad about it just a bit, and brings his hands to cup sena's cheeks, smiling fondly.]
Mm~. Sena, be mine? I wanna call you "my Sena". I'll woo you if I have to, but I want to be yours, too.
[ wow, four stupids... least leo didn't compare him to poop like last time. izumi can only let out an amused huff, leaning his head more against leo and letting his fingers trail staffs and notes across his back. izumi's steeled himself not to get too emotional, but at least in this position he can let just one tear fall down his face.
they're. really out here crying in front of the pregnant cat, huh. as for leo's heartfelt request he'll let himself rest in leo's hands for a bit, recomposing his feelings before lifting themselves up from the floor and carrying leo out of the living room and back into the living room, gently placing him on the couch before joining him. ]
You're really selfish, aren't you? Not to mention greedy, childish... But I wouldn't have it any other way if you'll have me, Leo-kun. [ mm, his cheeks are starting to hurt from how much he's smiling so warmly. ] Still, I'm not too sure about that - and it's not because I'm taking everything I've said back, but I too don't want to share my Leo-kun with everyone else.
[ his leo-kun... it does have a nice ring to it. ♪ ]
But at the same time, I want to prove that I can love and be loved without going out of control like that again. You're not the only one who's changed since then, so... will you help me?
[sena's no exception to his rule of not being carried without permission, but since it's just him mostly leaning against the other it's fine; he settles into the couch and pulls sena closer when he does too, cheeks warming. his leo-kun sounds nice. as nice as "my sena". his heart is cotton candy, sweet and soft and so very meltable, but he clings to the strands anyway, happy.]
Of course, Se~na. All of us are different than we were before... the Sena then, he wouldn't have asked help from anyone, least of all someone as unreliable and flighty as me~. [nuzzling into sena's hair, fond and affectionate.] "I won't rely on anyone," that's what you said, "I can stand even without leaning on someone," things like that...
[but it gets tiring, being alone, as they've both experienced... he trails off there, looking thoughtfully at the plants they'd brought from the other flat. without depending on others, growing and blossoming -- a flower can do naturally, even as it fights against the weather and circumstances...
the ones that're properly taken care of though, that've been shown love and care, are always the most vibrant and long lasting, and he smiles with a hum.]
Who do I get to blame for that change~? Naru and Rittsu, who stuck by your side like I asked? Suo~, who you all put your lives on the line for during that silly Judgement I threw down? No, I'll blame all of them and Sena himself. ♪ Wahaha, I love it, I love you~ ♪
Jeez, I still can't believe you remember all that shit I said eons ago yet you'd forget casual reminders like coming to school on time.
[ words he wishes he could take back before that disaster of a live happened, tears that he could've stopped from falling off leo's face when they'd had their shouting match after that - it weighs heavily in izumi's heart even to this day and he brings leo much much closer, his body becoming more comfortable and receptive to the loving touch that he'd kept pushing away for so long.
bleh, his heart's turning all gooey too, but that's par for the course for a sweets-hater like him. he'll need to get used to the sweet words leo's been spooning him with since the day they'd met, and he supposes that it's now or never. he's tired of delaying this now that they're finally here. ]
They've changed you too, you know. All of us have. We all did our best in holding up the fort until you came back. [ izumi did wild out for a moment there, but. past is past, ok. he continues running his hand through leo's hair, head tucked into the crook of his neck as he pulls his knees up to wrap his legs around leo. mm, mmm. comfy. ] But honestly, I've missed hearing those words from you... Makes me wanna say them myself to make up for all the lost time.
[mmm, mm, comfy, comfy... leo lets his eyes close and he hums softly, nuzzling sena again. he's changed cause of all of them too, huh... yeah. he'll have to properly thank them someday, for accepting an out of touch king back into their court, for waiting so patiently for him to remember and dragging him along.]
Sena'll stumble over them if he does it right off the back, so practice in the mirror first~. "Leo-kun, I looove you, I love you soooo muuuuuch~," and stuff like that. ♪ Anyway, I think I'd die if you said it as much as I do.
Hm~? [ really now........ ] Then we'll just have to make do with what we have right now.
[ izumi pulls leo off of his shoulder, gently kissing his eyes open so that he can stare into them. these emerald eyes are so easy to get lost into with how vibrant they look, and izumi is such a fool for making himself turn away from them when he himself keeps looking and falling for people with the same eye color.
they can never replace the original, though. that much is true. ]
...I love you. [ OKAY HE DIDN'T STUMBLE that's good. but he's so red despite his suave face that it'd still give his nervousness away. ]
[the kisses are oddly intimate, but they do their job well; his eyes open and he stares curiously at sena, lips tugging into a quick grin at the words, at how red sena's face is. ah, his cheeks are warm too, but it's nothing compared to how tight his heart is, how he presses himself into sena's chest with a laugh.]
I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
[ uwah, his chest feels like it's gonna burst and overflow with so much affection from how leo reacts to this. at this rate izumi's gonna pass out from lavishing leo with words that he'd meant to say in the past before leo would actually die from hearing them on repeat. but izumi steels himself, kissing his entire face while cheekily missing his lips, murmuring those three words like a secret as he gently pins leo down on the couch so that he can curl up on top of him, much like a cat.
this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
Partners, [immediate, bright, flushed face and fond. he squeezes sena's hand, repeating it softer.] We're partners, Sena.
[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
[ partners... that's a good compromise. izumi has his reservations about getting into an actual relationship in this city which was why he said what he'd said earlier, about not going to love in a place like this. but it's so much different with leo, who'd already said that they're partners during halloween, and this time that word holds a lot more meaning than before. because it could be anything they want and only they would know, much like a well-kept secret.
izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
[ah, he can hear how his heart picks up at that, hand gently carding through sena's hair and against the back of his neck.]
Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
Hah? I practiced harder than everyone else out there and you know it. Stuuupid, stupid Leo~kun.
[ sitting up, straddling leo's waist so that he can easily grab and pull at those cheeky cheeks. of course leo would know it; izumi was upset at him because of it during their shouting match once upon a time. ]
[leo makes a playful, disgruntled noise when sena starts to pull at his cheeks (justified), cupping his hands over the other's warmly.]
I know, I know~, I could ne~ver forget how beautiful Sena was when he was singing with all his heart, no matter how bad he sounded at first -- no, even then, even because of that... Because he wanted to, because he liked singing.
[they haven't gotten to the shouting match apologies yet, even if they're buried deep inside the rest of their talk, but it's so nice leo doesn't want to ruin it. he kisses one of sena's palms instead, gaze fond.]
You're gonna keep at it when we graduate too, right..? Or are you gonna wait with me for when the rest of 'em are free to stand on our stage?
[ izumi calms down at the hand kiss with a sigh, his free head raking back the other's hair. leo sure knows what to say, how to make izumi feel special - which is also a thing he's a little unwary about, but he shoves that down for now.
they'll. cross that bridge when they get there. they eventually will. ]
To be honest, I'm not that certain just yet. We don't even know if we can graduate in time while we're still idling our time here. [ consider this as a safety net until knights repaymentfes happens - ] Either way, I'm still going to continue singing when I need to, but right now I'm prioritizing my return to modeling and ballet for the meantime.
[blair don't threaten me in my own thread with repaymentfes]
Hm~? So my type's the kind that overworks themselves, huh~? It's your fault after all. ♪ [....... Hm.] I'm thinking the same kinda thing, composing's my main focus after all... but I think I'd rea~lly like it if we could all sing together again too. Suo~'s the type that'd get mad if we didn't.
[ shut the fuck up peace we die together when it happens either way ]
As Knights, or as the entire school again? [ flops down on leo again, gently. ] We just had our watered-down version of Starfes just last month. We were supposed to rile people up into rebelling against the system through song, but I don't see any signs that it's working since then.
[ maybe because it's the timing and all that. no one would want to think about the doom and gloom of rebellion during the holidays. ]
As Knights. And to be honest, I was just happy singing~. This place won't change with music, Sena... It's just an excuse to have our "voices heard". Idols aren't treated the same here as they are at our school.
[though it's more on par with worldwide versus japan, too...]
As long as we can give everyone something nice to think back on, that's enough, right~?
[ hey why the fuck are we setting things on fire, leokun ]
Mmm... I guess.
[ to leave an impression before they all fade away into obscurity - that, unfortunately, is the fate of every idol out there. ]
I guess we can do it with just the three of us... Naru-kun and Kasa-kun wouldn't survive this place, anyway. I mean Naru-kun has a chance, but Kasa-kun? The kid would be terrified out of his own ass.
I'd kill anyone who set their hands on Suo~. Naru can handle herself, just the way Rittsu can, but Suo's a baby. You'd take him in if he was like me, right?
Yeah, sure. [ shrugs. why did he pause for a second there, ] That way I can keep a closer eye on what he puts on his mouth. And no, I don't mean what I think you're thinking.
Can you imagine him as a Dom, though? [ another thoughtful pause. ] Well, he's proven himself to be worthy enough for the throne, that's for sure.
[ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, 0 mins since the mention of leo's mans. izumi falls silent at that, turns to curling up on top of leo's instead without a word. ]
Guess so. Sucks that Subs have to move out when the contracts expire though. Like what, they'd just send you straight back to the Down until you catch another person's eye?
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Date: 2019-01-11 05:49 am (UTC)who would've thought a literal sex city would've brought them all together?
izumi pulls his hands away from leo's grasp, only to cup his face gently and wipe his thumbs at those shiny eyes. shh, shh. ]
I know... I know. [ he can't cry now, he has to be the stronger one here, as he presses his forehead to leo's and whispers reverently: ] I still bring your music with me wherever I go.
[ not just the ratty old ipod that transcended time and space hidden away in izumi's belongings, but his songs have been tucked away in his heart as well - music that let izumi improve as a singer and vow to become a much better knight to duel for his king's behalf. it's there, it's always been there, and his leo is right about him being a fucking dumbass about all this that izumi will just have to retort by pressing his lips onto his for a kiss.
still bad at words, this boy. but aren't they all? ]
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Date: 2019-01-11 06:32 am (UTC)he'll eventual calm down into more shaking than anything else, resting his head against sena's and sniffling, but for the most part he's very much just letting himself sag, so deal with it.]
Stupid, stupid, stupid... You're so stupid.
[but he's stupid too, he knows. in a lot of ways that sena can't begin to imagine, or want to imagine for that matter. yet
he can do something right here, even if he feels bad about it just a bit, and brings his hands to cup sena's cheeks, smiling fondly.]
Mm~. Sena, be mine? I wanna call you "my Sena". I'll woo you if I have to, but I want to be yours, too.
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Date: 2019-01-11 07:09 am (UTC)they're. really out here crying in front of the pregnant cat, huh. as for leo's heartfelt request he'll let himself rest in leo's hands for a bit, recomposing his feelings before lifting themselves up from the floor and carrying leo out of the living room and back into the living room, gently placing him on the couch before joining him. ]
You're really selfish, aren't you? Not to mention greedy, childish... But I wouldn't have it any other way if you'll have me, Leo-kun. [ mm, his cheeks are starting to hurt from how much he's smiling so warmly. ] Still, I'm not too sure about that - and it's not because I'm taking everything I've said back, but I too don't want to share my Leo-kun with everyone else.
[ his leo-kun... it does have a nice ring to it. ♪ ]
But at the same time, I want to prove that I can love and be loved without going out of control like that again. You're not the only one who's changed since then, so... will you help me?
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Date: 2019-01-16 05:36 pm (UTC)Of course, Se~na. All of us are different than we were before... the Sena then, he wouldn't have asked help from anyone, least of all someone as unreliable and flighty as me~. [nuzzling into sena's hair, fond and affectionate.] "I won't rely on anyone," that's what you said, "I can stand even without leaning on someone," things like that...
[but it gets tiring, being alone, as they've both experienced... he trails off there, looking thoughtfully at the plants they'd brought from the other flat. without depending on others, growing and blossoming -- a flower can do naturally, even as it fights against the weather and circumstances...
the ones that're properly taken care of though, that've been shown love and care, are always the most vibrant and long lasting, and he smiles with a hum.]
Who do I get to blame for that change~? Naru and Rittsu, who stuck by your side like I asked? Suo~, who you all put your lives on the line for during that silly Judgement I threw down? No, I'll blame all of them and Sena himself. ♪ Wahaha, I love it, I love you~ ♪
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Date: 2019-01-16 09:25 pm (UTC)[ words he wishes he could take back before that disaster of a live happened, tears that he could've stopped from falling off leo's face when they'd had their shouting match after that - it weighs heavily in izumi's heart even to this day and he brings leo much much closer, his body becoming more comfortable and receptive to the loving touch that he'd kept pushing away for so long.
bleh, his heart's turning all gooey too, but that's par for the course for a sweets-hater like him. he'll need to get used to the sweet words leo's been spooning him with since the day they'd met, and he supposes that it's now or never. he's tired of delaying this now that they're finally here. ]
They've changed you too, you know. All of us have. We all did our best in holding up the fort until you came back. [ izumi did wild out for a moment there, but. past is past, ok. he continues running his hand through leo's hair, head tucked into the crook of his neck as he pulls his knees up to wrap his legs around leo. mm, mmm. comfy. ] But honestly, I've missed hearing those words from you... Makes me wanna say them myself to make up for all the lost time.
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Date: 2019-01-17 11:19 am (UTC)Sena'll stumble over them if he does it right off the back, so practice in the mirror first~. "Leo-kun, I looove you, I love you soooo muuuuuch~," and stuff like that. ♪ Anyway, I think I'd die if you said it as much as I do.
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Date: 2019-01-17 12:53 pm (UTC)[ izumi pulls leo off of his shoulder, gently kissing his eyes open so that he can stare into them. these emerald eyes are so easy to get lost into with how vibrant they look, and izumi is such a fool for making himself turn away from them when he himself keeps looking and falling for people with the same eye color.
they can never replace the original, though. that much is true. ]
...I love you. [ OKAY HE DIDN'T STUMBLE that's good. but he's so red despite his suave face that it'd still give his nervousness away. ]
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Date: 2019-01-17 02:16 pm (UTC)I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:23 pm (UTC)this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:33 pm (UTC)[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:24 pm (UTC)izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:34 pm (UTC)Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:39 pm (UTC)[ truly he did. he looks his head up at leo with a bit of a pout. ]
You were the one who said that my voice was shitty, you know. Don't tell me you already forgot.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:42 pm (UTC)[he's teasing a little bit. there's the more romantic "your practice was shitty and your voice god himself" but there's also this.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:47 pm (UTC)[ sitting up, straddling leo's waist so that he can easily grab and pull at those cheeky cheeks. of course leo would know it; izumi was upset at him because of it during their shouting match once upon a time. ]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:55 pm (UTC)I know, I know~, I could ne~ver forget how beautiful Sena was when he was singing with all his heart, no matter how bad he sounded at first -- no, even then, even because of that... Because he wanted to, because he liked singing.
[they haven't gotten to the shouting match apologies yet, even if they're buried deep inside the rest of their talk, but it's so nice leo doesn't want to ruin it. he kisses one of sena's palms instead, gaze fond.]
You're gonna keep at it when we graduate too, right..? Or are you gonna wait with me for when the rest of 'em are free to stand on our stage?
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:05 pm (UTC)they'll. cross that bridge when they get there. they eventually will. ]
To be honest, I'm not that certain just yet. We don't even know if we can graduate in time while we're still idling our time here. [ consider this as a safety net until knights repaymentfes happens - ] Either way, I'm still going to continue singing when I need to, but right now I'm prioritizing my return to modeling and ballet for the meantime.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:10 pm (UTC)Hm~? So my type's the kind that overworks themselves, huh~? It's your fault after all. ♪ [....... Hm.] I'm thinking the same kinda thing, composing's my main focus after all... but I think I'd rea~lly like it if we could all sing together again too. Suo~'s the type that'd get mad if we didn't.
[under the guise of Not being mad. like a kid.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:19 pm (UTC)As Knights, or as the entire school again? [ flops down on leo again, gently. ] We just had our watered-down version of Starfes just last month. We were supposed to rile people up into rebelling against the system through song, but I don't see any signs that it's working since then.
[ maybe because it's the timing and all that. no one would want to think about the doom and gloom of rebellion during the holidays. ]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:25 pm (UTC)[though it's more on par with worldwide versus japan, too...]
As long as we can give everyone something nice to think back on, that's enough, right~?
[... nevermind potential arsonist things...]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:30 pm (UTC)Mmm... I guess.
[ to leave an impression before they all fade away into obscurity - that, unfortunately, is the fate of every idol out there. ]
I guess we can do it with just the three of us... Naru-kun and Kasa-kun wouldn't survive this place, anyway. I mean Naru-kun has a chance, but Kasa-kun? The kid would be terrified out of his own ass.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:37 pm (UTC)I'd kill anyone who set their hands on Suo~. Naru can handle herself, just the way Rittsu can, but Suo's a baby. You'd take him in if he was like me, right?
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:41 pm (UTC)Yeah, sure. [ shrugs. why did he pause for a second there, ] That way I can keep a closer eye on what he puts on his mouth. And no, I don't mean what I think you're thinking.
Can you imagine him as a Dom, though? [ another thoughtful pause. ] Well, he's proven himself to be worthy enough for the throne, that's for sure.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:44 pm (UTC)[and assuming people are honest and straight the way he is. leo's definitely set on protecting him.]
Mm... But then I couldn't live with Aspe anymore, huh...
[... hm...]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:48 pm (UTC)Guess so. Sucks that Subs have to move out when the contracts expire though. Like what, they'd just send you straight back to the Down until you catch another person's eye?
[ ...huffs. ]
Did I mention this system fucking sucks?
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