[the kisses are oddly intimate, but they do their job well; his eyes open and he stares curiously at sena, lips tugging into a quick grin at the words, at how red sena's face is. ah, his cheeks are warm too, but it's nothing compared to how tight his heart is, how he presses himself into sena's chest with a laugh.]
I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
[ uwah, his chest feels like it's gonna burst and overflow with so much affection from how leo reacts to this. at this rate izumi's gonna pass out from lavishing leo with words that he'd meant to say in the past before leo would actually die from hearing them on repeat. but izumi steels himself, kissing his entire face while cheekily missing his lips, murmuring those three words like a secret as he gently pins leo down on the couch so that he can curl up on top of him, much like a cat.
this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
Partners, [immediate, bright, flushed face and fond. he squeezes sena's hand, repeating it softer.] We're partners, Sena.
[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
[ partners... that's a good compromise. izumi has his reservations about getting into an actual relationship in this city which was why he said what he'd said earlier, about not going to love in a place like this. but it's so much different with leo, who'd already said that they're partners during halloween, and this time that word holds a lot more meaning than before. because it could be anything they want and only they would know, much like a well-kept secret.
izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
[ah, he can hear how his heart picks up at that, hand gently carding through sena's hair and against the back of his neck.]
Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
Hah? I practiced harder than everyone else out there and you know it. Stuuupid, stupid Leo~kun.
[ sitting up, straddling leo's waist so that he can easily grab and pull at those cheeky cheeks. of course leo would know it; izumi was upset at him because of it during their shouting match once upon a time. ]
[leo makes a playful, disgruntled noise when sena starts to pull at his cheeks (justified), cupping his hands over the other's warmly.]
I know, I know~, I could ne~ver forget how beautiful Sena was when he was singing with all his heart, no matter how bad he sounded at first -- no, even then, even because of that... Because he wanted to, because he liked singing.
[they haven't gotten to the shouting match apologies yet, even if they're buried deep inside the rest of their talk, but it's so nice leo doesn't want to ruin it. he kisses one of sena's palms instead, gaze fond.]
You're gonna keep at it when we graduate too, right..? Or are you gonna wait with me for when the rest of 'em are free to stand on our stage?
[ izumi calms down at the hand kiss with a sigh, his free head raking back the other's hair. leo sure knows what to say, how to make izumi feel special - which is also a thing he's a little unwary about, but he shoves that down for now.
they'll. cross that bridge when they get there. they eventually will. ]
To be honest, I'm not that certain just yet. We don't even know if we can graduate in time while we're still idling our time here. [ consider this as a safety net until knights repaymentfes happens - ] Either way, I'm still going to continue singing when I need to, but right now I'm prioritizing my return to modeling and ballet for the meantime.
[blair don't threaten me in my own thread with repaymentfes]
Hm~? So my type's the kind that overworks themselves, huh~? It's your fault after all. ♪ [....... Hm.] I'm thinking the same kinda thing, composing's my main focus after all... but I think I'd rea~lly like it if we could all sing together again too. Suo~'s the type that'd get mad if we didn't.
[ shut the fuck up peace we die together when it happens either way ]
As Knights, or as the entire school again? [ flops down on leo again, gently. ] We just had our watered-down version of Starfes just last month. We were supposed to rile people up into rebelling against the system through song, but I don't see any signs that it's working since then.
[ maybe because it's the timing and all that. no one would want to think about the doom and gloom of rebellion during the holidays. ]
As Knights. And to be honest, I was just happy singing~. This place won't change with music, Sena... It's just an excuse to have our "voices heard". Idols aren't treated the same here as they are at our school.
[though it's more on par with worldwide versus japan, too...]
As long as we can give everyone something nice to think back on, that's enough, right~?
[ hey why the fuck are we setting things on fire, leokun ]
Mmm... I guess.
[ to leave an impression before they all fade away into obscurity - that, unfortunately, is the fate of every idol out there. ]
I guess we can do it with just the three of us... Naru-kun and Kasa-kun wouldn't survive this place, anyway. I mean Naru-kun has a chance, but Kasa-kun? The kid would be terrified out of his own ass.
I'd kill anyone who set their hands on Suo~. Naru can handle herself, just the way Rittsu can, but Suo's a baby. You'd take him in if he was like me, right?
Yeah, sure. [ shrugs. why did he pause for a second there, ] That way I can keep a closer eye on what he puts on his mouth. And no, I don't mean what I think you're thinking.
Can you imagine him as a Dom, though? [ another thoughtful pause. ] Well, he's proven himself to be worthy enough for the throne, that's for sure.
[ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, 0 mins since the mention of leo's mans. izumi falls silent at that, turns to curling up on top of leo's instead without a word. ]
Guess so. Sucks that Subs have to move out when the contracts expire though. Like what, they'd just send you straight back to the Down until you catch another person's eye?
It does~. I don't know how all that works, hon~estly, and Aspe said I should... contract with different people too, since I had a couple I was thinking about when it got really cold...
[winter, the enemy of leo tsukinaga.]
... But I don't know if I want to. I like staying here, with him and Taku. The other people... um, there's complications and stuff, so it's easier too~? If I can be here.
[... aspen wouldn't think it burdensome for him to stay, right..? no. it's hard enough to share him as is, too, but at least like this he's more in the know of who passes through aspen's life too. being away would diminish that. it's not a great way to think, but it's how it is.]
[ has it really been 10 mins since their heartfelt confession, wtf
because izumi falls silent at that, fingers curling at the hem of leo's shirt tightly (with little to no intention of taking it off, don't worry). it's... mmm, he just. absolutely hates this part of himself, the inherent jealousy. this is really why leo's better off with someone else now, so that they'd no longer hurt each other like those darker days in the midst of those dazzling ones leo's about to make a three-parter for. ]
Don't knock a lot of people out till you've tried them, Leo-kun. [ "like me". ] You have no idea how many are lining up just to have you.
[ "like me, like me, like me", he wants to scream. ]
[fathoming the idea that he's so wanted -- it's a little much, a little hard, even if he has proof here, even if... he knows some others who feel that way, who want things. leo pets through sena's hair, glancing down at him.]
You're one of 'em, of course~. Mama too, 'cause I know he'd wanna keep me safe. And...
[he drops off there, staring a moment before looking away.]
That's all, probably. [it's not. but he really doubts sena wants to hear eichi's name in the list.] That I can think of anyway~. I just know I have enough people I thought about to keep me for a year! ♪
[ how does a genius like him not realize that a lot of people would want him? is he still too affected from last year? but aren't they all? izumi also catches that hesitant pause but decides not to push it for now, strangely comforted by the fact that he's not the only one who's not being 100% truthful -
but that's bad, isn't it? ]
Yet you chose someone not from our school.
[ but it could be worse. he could've been contracted with eichi, and that just kills the knight. ]
It's fine. I-- We'll keep you alive until we can go home a year from now. [ did they even mention that they'll go home after a year though... hm. ]
[lingering affects from last year or not, there's a clean difference in his mind about how people want him -- he knows his knights and mama would want him to keep him safe, for example, and... and eichi wants to be close as much as he does, honestly admitting, but wanting any other way save for his music isn't something that comes directly to his mind; it's less of a lack of confidence and more that he's stupid, essentially.]
I wonder if we'll get to go home, though~. I miss my sweetest Ruka-tan so much, I hope so~. They probably think I ran off, Sena, Dad's gonna be mad at me...
[ "what kind of love" izumi wants to ask, but that... should be the end of that. izumi would hate it too if he were asked about it. ]
How is this any different from finding you in my daily walks, for instance...
[ A LOT DIFFERENT, IZUMI. ]
I mean, they have to, right? We still haven't graduated yet. [ he snuggles up to leo's neck, trying to make himself comfortable with all this talk. ] Kasa-kun still has to inherit the crown from you.
Right~? I'll wait until your year is done too, Sena. So we can all go back together.
[ritsu'd be done, too. leo nuzzles sena and kisses his forehead, wrapping his arms around him tightly.]
You, me, n'Ritsu. Think everyone'll be pretty much done with this stupid thing too at that point. Ahh~, I can create a million songs from these experiences alone though, so I can't hate it too much~. ♪
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Date: 2019-01-17 02:16 pm (UTC)I love you too~! Again, again, I wanna hear it more and more, Sena! ... My Sena~.
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:23 pm (UTC)this is... too indulgent. can izumi really have all of this without any repercussions? ]
Mm, Leo-kun. [ his hand searches for his, as always. ] What are we, now?
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Date: 2019-01-17 07:33 pm (UTC)[which encompasses a lot of meanings, leo thinks. whatever they like or need it to mean. whatever they want. partners, the one person above all he wants to stand at his side, who he felt like he could take on the whole world with once upon a time -- he still does, but he would never put that responsibility on sena's shoulders again.]
You're... not the only person I find inspiration from anymore, but I still feel like writing a thousand of compositions when I think about you -- I still haven't finished my epic of dazzling days you gave me either, you know? It's a three parter. ♪
[but still, still he wants to write more, wants there to be songs only sena can sing... ah, he knows he loves sena, he always will. who cares if it's indulgent, they're allowed that here more than they are at the school.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:24 pm (UTC)izumi sighs, elated that finally they've arrived at that, after months of dancing around it. ]
Let me know if you've finished it, then. [ he shifts a bit on top of leo, ear resting right on his chest. what a nice beat his heart's got. ] Wanna let the universe know that I only sound this beautiful because of you.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:34 pm (UTC)Mm... Not just 'cause of me, Sena. You worked so hard to be able to stand on stage with everyone else even beyond my songs. Don't try and be so romantic~.
[even if it's nice. it'll make leo crave the same thing he did last year, he's a little terrified of falling back into it.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:39 pm (UTC)[ truly he did. he looks his head up at leo with a bit of a pout. ]
You were the one who said that my voice was shitty, you know. Don't tell me you already forgot.
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:42 pm (UTC)[he's teasing a little bit. there's the more romantic "your practice was shitty and your voice god himself" but there's also this.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:47 pm (UTC)[ sitting up, straddling leo's waist so that he can easily grab and pull at those cheeky cheeks. of course leo would know it; izumi was upset at him because of it during their shouting match once upon a time. ]
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Date: 2019-01-18 12:55 pm (UTC)I know, I know~, I could ne~ver forget how beautiful Sena was when he was singing with all his heart, no matter how bad he sounded at first -- no, even then, even because of that... Because he wanted to, because he liked singing.
[they haven't gotten to the shouting match apologies yet, even if they're buried deep inside the rest of their talk, but it's so nice leo doesn't want to ruin it. he kisses one of sena's palms instead, gaze fond.]
You're gonna keep at it when we graduate too, right..? Or are you gonna wait with me for when the rest of 'em are free to stand on our stage?
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:05 pm (UTC)they'll. cross that bridge when they get there. they eventually will. ]
To be honest, I'm not that certain just yet. We don't even know if we can graduate in time while we're still idling our time here. [ consider this as a safety net until knights repaymentfes happens - ] Either way, I'm still going to continue singing when I need to, but right now I'm prioritizing my return to modeling and ballet for the meantime.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:10 pm (UTC)Hm~? So my type's the kind that overworks themselves, huh~? It's your fault after all. ♪ [....... Hm.] I'm thinking the same kinda thing, composing's my main focus after all... but I think I'd rea~lly like it if we could all sing together again too. Suo~'s the type that'd get mad if we didn't.
[under the guise of Not being mad. like a kid.]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:19 pm (UTC)As Knights, or as the entire school again? [ flops down on leo again, gently. ] We just had our watered-down version of Starfes just last month. We were supposed to rile people up into rebelling against the system through song, but I don't see any signs that it's working since then.
[ maybe because it's the timing and all that. no one would want to think about the doom and gloom of rebellion during the holidays. ]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:25 pm (UTC)[though it's more on par with worldwide versus japan, too...]
As long as we can give everyone something nice to think back on, that's enough, right~?
[... nevermind potential arsonist things...]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:30 pm (UTC)Mmm... I guess.
[ to leave an impression before they all fade away into obscurity - that, unfortunately, is the fate of every idol out there. ]
I guess we can do it with just the three of us... Naru-kun and Kasa-kun wouldn't survive this place, anyway. I mean Naru-kun has a chance, but Kasa-kun? The kid would be terrified out of his own ass.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:37 pm (UTC)I'd kill anyone who set their hands on Suo~. Naru can handle herself, just the way Rittsu can, but Suo's a baby. You'd take him in if he was like me, right?
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:41 pm (UTC)Yeah, sure. [ shrugs. why did he pause for a second there, ] That way I can keep a closer eye on what he puts on his mouth. And no, I don't mean what I think you're thinking.
Can you imagine him as a Dom, though? [ another thoughtful pause. ] Well, he's proven himself to be worthy enough for the throne, that's for sure.
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:44 pm (UTC)[and assuming people are honest and straight the way he is. leo's definitely set on protecting him.]
Mm... But then I couldn't live with Aspe anymore, huh...
[... hm...]
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Date: 2019-01-18 01:48 pm (UTC)Guess so. Sucks that Subs have to move out when the contracts expire though. Like what, they'd just send you straight back to the Down until you catch another person's eye?
[ ...huffs. ]
Did I mention this system fucking sucks?
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Date: 2019-01-18 02:08 pm (UTC)It does~. I don't know how all that works, hon~estly, and Aspe said I should... contract with different people too, since I had a couple I was thinking about when it got really cold...
[winter, the enemy of leo tsukinaga.]
... But I don't know if I want to. I like staying here, with him and Taku. The other people... um, there's complications and stuff, so it's easier too~? If I can be here.
[... aspen wouldn't think it burdensome for him to stay, right..? no. it's hard enough to share him as is, too, but at least like this he's more in the know of who passes through aspen's life too. being away would diminish that. it's not a great way to think, but it's how it is.]
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Date: 2019-01-19 01:00 pm (UTC)because izumi falls silent at that, fingers curling at the hem of leo's shirt tightly (with little to no intention of taking it off, don't worry). it's... mmm, he just. absolutely hates this part of himself, the inherent jealousy. this is really why leo's better off with someone else now, so that they'd no longer hurt each other like those darker days in the midst of those dazzling ones leo's about to make a three-parter for. ]
Don't knock a lot of people out till you've tried them, Leo-kun. [ "like me". ] You have no idea how many are lining up just to have you.
[ "like me, like me, like me", he wants to scream. ]
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Date: 2019-01-19 01:47 pm (UTC)[fathoming the idea that he's so wanted -- it's a little much, a little hard, even if he has proof here, even if... he knows some others who feel that way, who want things. leo pets through sena's hair, glancing down at him.]
You're one of 'em, of course~. Mama too, 'cause I know he'd wanna keep me safe. And...
[he drops off there, staring a moment before looking away.]
That's all, probably. [it's not. but he really doubts sena wants to hear eichi's name in the list.] That I can think of anyway~. I just know I have enough people I thought about to keep me for a year! ♪
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Date: 2019-01-19 02:07 pm (UTC)but that's bad, isn't it? ]
Yet you chose someone not from our school.
[ but it could be worse. he could've been contracted with eichi, and that just kills the knight. ]
It's fine. I-- We'll keep you alive until we can go home a year from now. [ did they even mention that they'll go home after a year though... hm. ]
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Date: 2019-01-19 02:15 pm (UTC)[lingering affects from last year or not, there's a clean difference in his mind about how people want him -- he knows his knights and mama would want him to keep him safe, for example, and... and eichi wants to be close as much as he does, honestly admitting, but wanting any other way save for his music isn't something that comes directly to his mind; it's less of a lack of confidence and more that he's stupid, essentially.]
I wonder if we'll get to go home, though~. I miss my sweetest Ruka-tan so much, I hope so~. They probably think I ran off, Sena, Dad's gonna be mad at me...
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Date: 2019-01-19 02:22 pm (UTC)How is this any different from finding you in my daily walks, for instance...
[ A LOT DIFFERENT, IZUMI. ]
I mean, they have to, right? We still haven't graduated yet. [ he snuggles up to leo's neck, trying to make himself comfortable with all this talk. ] Kasa-kun still has to inherit the crown from you.
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Date: 2019-01-19 02:33 pm (UTC)[ritsu'd be done, too. leo nuzzles sena and kisses his forehead, wrapping his arms around him tightly.]
You, me, n'Ritsu. Think everyone'll be pretty much done with this stupid thing too at that point. Ahh~, I can create a million songs from these experiences alone though, so I can't hate it too much~. ♪
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